Headache bout my language paper

after recess.....
my chinese teacher...
was oso my form teacher.....
enter d class once d bell ring...
luckily i m earlier than her...
or else..
sure gt scolded d....

dunno wats d reason oso...
suddenly ask geraldine "cn v dun take chinese, dis subject in SPM?"
i m juz wondering....
of corse i noe dat hw cn dis happen since i am studying in a chinese skul???
bt dat paper is so hard 2 score u noe????
always gt dissapointed when i c my result.....
i hvnt gt such marks for chinese b4 d.....
unfortunately....
dat wei yun (a very disturbing gal bt cute)
heard our conversation.....
n tell my chinese teacher....
omg....
i was so scared dat tym..
wondering wat will b her response when she heard dat.....
she din scold me (thx god)....
bt started 2 tell d whole class bout hw important chinese was....
n all d real stories bout her students.....
she nearly use d whole period.....
din expect dat will happen.....
bt wat she say.....
"以前做学生时,还真的不知道什么是心痛?
成了老师后,听到华校生居然说要放弃华文,
才明白什么是心痛.....
要怪就怪自己当初傻乎乎的爱着华文咯......"

suddenly gt a weird feeling.....
duno hw 2 describe oso....
after dat....
when i went 2 office 2 gv all those permission slip 2 miss Leng.....
my chinese teacher talk 2 me....
ask me d reason y i suddenly ask dat....
n after a quite long conversation....
after wat she told me, advised me.....
feel so ashame 2 myself.....
haiz....
wat cn i do nw??????????
besides putting more effort on it...
i m gonna die nw....
all my language paper(malays,english n chinese) were so weak....
hw am i going 2 score in d next exam....
which is juz 2 months later.....
help!!!!!!!!!!